Teachbroeck

I think I am done posting for a bit.
I have 2 days left with the students ....I will be teaching summer school too so I will be poking around on all my favorite sites. (some of you know that I don't use interenet at home....a huge shock I know, but my family is more connected when we don't have it...)

Maybe will be more inspired later for now I am just sad. Confused. Bitter. Grieving.

I wish you all a magical summer.

I will be :
-at the pool with K
-walking to get in shape
-sleeping in
-reading FLUFF books
-taking a class
-visiting G'ma more
-keeping in touch with friends
-sleeping in once in awhile

Take care....for now!
***update I will also be wasting LOTS of time here WOW~

Ultrasounds
Blood tests
RhoGam shot


Consensus of ultrasound tech: Everything looks GREAT, NORMAL! May just be implantation.

PHEW....relieved....overjoyed....back on track!!! Gotta have Faith! (insert George Micheal tune in your head for the rest of the day)


Phone call from DR. later in the afternoon:
Dr.: SO I hear you are having some difficulties with this pregnancy.
ME: Well I fell much better after coming n today and talking with the ultrasound tech.
Dr.:WELLLLL......your blood work tells us a little different story. I am concerned.
ME: Okay (choking up for the 3945858th time yesterday)
Dr.: Your hormone count is WAAAY high...so you are either having twins or a miscarriage.
Come back on Thursday for another lab test. Bye.

Am I being PUNK'D? I feel like it.

Either 2 babies and whowhowowo and so exciting or sorry another miscarriage have a great day!

5 weeks AKA Before

I was watching the VIEW (settle down ..I happen to adore Rosie...and don't remember bashing anything on your site...well except once with GFF but that was an accident!) She has my sense of humor with the facial expressions and knocking people down to earth AND GUN CONTROL to protect the thousands of kids that shoot their siblings each year ((totally made that stat up but roll with it))
ANYHEW.....She was asking the other ladies on the panel from hell about how they were raised and if they ever FELT poor not knowing what white/blue collate meant. She then asked about some of the elites' houses they had all been to and what "Living High Society" meant to them. Finally, she told anecdote about visiting some rich lady and asking the doorman what apt. this wealthy woman lived in. The doorman replied, " You mean what floor?" Rosie thought everyone would aspire/dream of having that Penthouse or grandiose apartment...that was IT- the top of the line. My dear Rosie ( who I do love how she pauses at the right time in the favor of comedy) I RESPECTFULLY DISAGREE .

View from the back door of my 30 yr old DREAM HOUSE

I may fly to Japan after school....their culture acknowledges miscarriage...there is a temple where you can bring gifts...western society sucks...there are Hallmark cards for every creed, race, sex, religion but for something that happens to so many women ...it is hush hush have a fucking cookie and don't make me uncomfortable
(is this the bitterness stage??) wow I don't like ...

no heartbeat
3 ultrasounds
panic stricken eyes
"procedure"
sadness

Why does it look more like 20?