update

TEACHBROECK On 10:22 AM


Not much new around here...busy. Christmas shopping done, wrapped and safely on the dining room table. My son is a bulldozer which means NO ornaments on the tree, no gifts under the tree, 75% of my decorations stayed packed away, there is duct tape on my frig, the top 2 shelves of every shelf I own are crammed and the bottom 2 empty and he is NOT a sleeper...he loves my bed. *sigh*

















Kdog is too quickly burning through her 5th grade year. Last year in my building. Growing too fast. BB starts next week. I bought her a pink polka dot carry-on for our first family vacation. She is a DIVA. I worry about Middle School and that brings...but I must march froward and try to savor this last girl bit...I wrapped one toy for her this year...next year I know there won't be any that don't make music or text. That Littlest Pet Shop whateveritis will remain in my memory forever.








I started the Low Carb world. Trying not to make it my life, but liking it so far. I may even buy a scale.




Going to read all of you now.

Beat it

TEACHBROECK On 4:56 PM

Lady Antebellum

TEACHBROECK On 7:46 AM




Haven't we all felt like at some time in our life? Maybe in college, or after a divorce or bad break up. Even now if I am away from home or with the girls I get to that point where I just want him. I remember being broke up with Jdog many moons ago and would lie in bed after a night out when my "tough don't fuck with me" wall was down....begging myself not to CALL. I always did...sometimes he answered sometimes he didn't...this song just sends me back...and plus they are kickass vocalists! I heard they are touring with Tim McGraw...yum.

Dear Santa, NO TOYS! and a bonus therapy session

TEACHBROECK On 12:34 PM

Baby J refuses to play with toys...we have a lot of money tied up in Fisher Price investments. (this is a lie I only buy used...more money for wine!)

Notice he lying amongst all the toys but prefers to engage in selfmutilation by pestering the cat long enough until he gets bit.

Fun times behind bars






Again with the kitchen goods








Technically he is near a toy here, but look again he is vacuuming it (more on this later when I share my momdiagnosed OCD of this child )









Again not a toy.







In a funk today... could not figure it out..I mean last night I got 40% off all my Kohl's purchases plus had 20 dollars in Kohl's Kash...that should ensure a week or two of euphoria. I love my Target but they are not dishin out 40%off the new Littlest Pet Shop Crap. Then I figured it out it- was my first Halloween with out Kdog. It has been during the week the last 6 years and her dad lives to far away to share on the week days. Baby J has a cute costume (FINE is it Kdog's from 10 years ago..again WINE MONEY!) But between the fact he can't eat candy and the before mentioned OCD tendencies he (HATES HIS COSTUME ON) it seems ridiculous to take him Trick-or Treating. I mean noone wants to see my bentover-sweatin-pants-fallin -off smile when they open the door. Halloween is for Kdog's age. The excitement, the friends, the dance, THE EVERLOVING CANDY! I never liked it...I have dressed up once in 10 years. But I guess I will force Baby J in the costume, take him in and out of the car seat 45 times in the mock 10 wind so he can look at the candy I have asked family not to give him and then scream when I take it away. Even next year he at least eat the stuff until his sticky fingers ache from unwrapping. I would rather stay home and stalk Jen Lancaster online.







But....those days of no baby. The tears- the secret promises between God and I.

The show must go on!




Happy Halloween!

trying to get hood off


and I am alive and well...

TEACHBROECK On 11:04 AM

Totally into Kenny and Dave's I'm Alive song right now.


How are you kids? The flu is going crazy around here! Baby J had rash and temp for 2 days. Urgent care peeps said VIRAL so no meds...he snapped out of it just in time for a mommy night with the girls!


Are you getting your kids vaccinated for H1N1..??? I don't really fear immunization usually. I know some feel there is a connection between them and autism...I feel I give them the immunizations my DR recommends so they don't die of Polio. But the H1N1 has me confused...it is SO NEW! But see kids DYING! BABIES!!! I think in most the deaths the children have had some other health concerns. Our school is doing a mass SHOTFEST next week...I just can't decide what to do.





Hubby hunts most of the week (grr!) and he has to help cut wood AKA drink all day on Saturday so I am hanging with the kiddos most of the week.





And also. I saved Baby J's life on Sunday. Really I did. I am so glad to have active, crazy and sometimes crabby kids and and chore list that ever ends because that means I'm alive .......and well.








Fall into Family

TEACHBROECK On 11:09 AM



They are my Thankgiving







Trying

TEACHBROECK On 11:05 AM

I am trying to keep a good attitude BUT:


Last night another teacher kept her conference 25 extra minutes so when I had a conference for the sibling it was WAY after it was time for me to go home (7:30 pm)!

Another teacher with a severe eating (or NOT eating ) disorder constantly brings in FOOD and CANDY - I wan to leave a note:

PLEASE STOP BRINGING THIS STUFF IN ! BRING IN HEALTHY SNACKS!!! WE DON'T NEED ALL THIS SUGAR (AND GOD KNOWS YOU ARE NOT EATING ANY OF IT!!!)

I have very emotional kids this year. I am fabulous with BEHAVIOR issues not so hot with emotional issues ( I had a chair thrown at me last week!) I am growing as an educator, but it is exhausting to be this calm!

My husband is so wonderful....but he came home late Monday...I had a hot homemade meal ready! Dishes done, kids squeaky clean. I come late last night and he had the house so neat BUT he had to eat with me and so I had to make everything and have a crawling toddler on me!!! I KNOW I KNOW I love the that little toddler but EAT like a normal person at 5 or 6 so when I get home I can relax for 4 minutes while I eat my sandwich! I don't have many rules but when MOMMA HUNGRY watch out....6 days a week I eat half my supper on the bathroom floor because Baby J gets done eating and he needs to be immediately hosed down...once he is done I can't hardly keep him from leaping out of the highchair! Fine -family enjoy your supper I will get up and take care of pigpen! But when I work 12 hours and and tired and hungry couldn't someone else just entertain him for awhile!?

Sorry WHINY!

HAPPY THINGS FOR AN "OPRAHCOUNTERBALANCE":

*Baby J slept ALL night last night!
*Kdog stayed with during conferences to help out with VB and then helped in the library. I was proud of her....she did not complain once about being hungry (unlike me ha!) or being bored.
*One of my dearest friends has a birthday this weekend and I get to help her celebrate at one of my favorite restaurants!
* When I left this morning the kitchen was clean! I love coming home to a clean house....I guess Jdog isn't so bad =)

Thankful

TEACHBROECK On 10:25 AM



*Photos by Miss Kdog

Friday

TEACHBROECK On 8:09 AM

Things are good in my life. We have a busy, healthy life so I have nothing to complain about, but of course I still do!

I have had many heartswelling, misty eyed moments with Kdog this year. She is in 5th grade. You know the LAST grade at the elementary building where I work.

1. They announced her birthday last month over the PA here at school...I have heard that announcement for 7 years....no more
2. At a football game I let her and a friend "walk around"-even to the opponents side WAYYY across the field. No more standing my mom's side.
3. Her outfits are cuter than mine these days.
4. She asked if she could bring girly toys to school for recess and I usually say NO, but next year there won't be recess - and probably no girly toys.
5. We are preparing to move the kids' rooms and create a play room in the basement-Kdog's playroom is a MESS-but there is door I can shut so I never care. Half the toys in there are done being played with. Strollers, babies, puppets, dress up clothes. Very sad.

She still loves Littlest Pet Shop and teaching school so I get to see her PLAY. She still insists I tuck her in...still reaches for me when she gets a scrape, still slips her hand in mine when no one is around. I am savoring this last season of a girl. I see the tween coming and is is beautiful and scary.

BabyJ is the funniest creature I have ever seen. He does whatever we do.

1. He yells babbling yet insulting words down the stairs (that would be me screaming down at someone)
2. He unpacks cases of beer and tips the cans up to his mouth with vigor (that would be Jdog)
3. He scolds the dog with his pointer finger (that would be all of us)
4. He slaps dish towels against the counter and cabinets (that would be me killing flies this summer)
5. He dances like Micheal Jackson on crack (ME!!)

He does not have time for trivial things like getting dressed...but loves his bath....he does not sleep through the night every night...(any of you that know me the first year was tough) but he puts himself to sleep and usually makes it. He is beautiful, smart and funny and I can't believe I am his mother.

ME: I have a hard class this year-lots of emotional issues. I am a great behavior goddess but these poor babies with anxiety, OCD etc... (good thing I remember to take MY meds hee hee )....I am learning a lot. I never workout, I eat too much, I am always tired but pretty much happy. Contentment can be boring sometimes...I struggle to not create issues just create some stimulation.

Jdog is good....he 95% the most dedicated, remarkable husband and father. He does dishes, changes diapers, lets me sleep in on Saturdays, makes me coffee....and the 5% asshole he is still working on. I knew he was a dirty fighter (verbally) when I met him...he lacks keen and sneaky communicating skills like me so he just gets mean and hurtful. We are working on it. I love him...good and bad.

Enough of me...been lurking on your blogs...need some fresh ones to check out and miss some old friends (Thank God for Facebook!)

Yes! Look everything is great here!

TEACHBROECK On 3:09 PM











With both feet...

TEACHBROECK On 1:23 PM







So I could mention the FABULOUS summer we have been having...how K-dog is turning into to some sort of girman (girl +woman) ....or how Baby J has stolen my heart...such a different bond with a monkey climbing animal....the sweetass wine cruise I went one....maybe how excited I am about the changes we have made to our house....the stresses of motherhood....the Anniversary trip we are taking (not even out of the state don't get too excited!)






But NO I will jump in full steam ahead with the letter that arrived at my house today...a letter from our health care provider that MY FAVORITE LOVE OF MY LIFE DOCTOR MCSTEAMY was leaving...no reasons given...no personal note from him ....(in my head I was his favorite patient !) WHAT WILL ID O WITHOUT HIM?






It is a sign to me I am done having kids...after two miscarriages I looked him square in the face and told him there seem to be many things I can do to GET pregnant...that is not my problem...I CAN'T STAY pregnant!!!! He saved me....he believed in me....he gave me Baby J!






I thought I would just KNOW...if I was done...I think I will be 90 and my uterus will quiver at the sight of a newborn...but DONE DONE? In my mind I know I am would not be a good mom to 2 YOUNG DEMANDING kids...and how much of that takes away form Kdog's emerging into a preteen with new demands and needs and HELL I WOULD LIKE TO GET ON AIRPLANE SOON!






I never wanted to be that 45 old mother the first day of preschool ( not that I care what others do) we are blessed with an amazing daycare provider, but it comes with a hefty price tag...I think we would have to sell the house to have 2 in daycare...






SO ANYWAY! There is it is ! My in the moment feelings....I told my husband I may not be able to eat after reading letter I was so depressed...(HA!)






SIDEBAR: Why don't I use our real names? Is Stalker really going to think we are THAT fascinating out of the 45-4096-569 5-67 blogs out there...

Considering....

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getting back in the saddle...

HI

TEACHBROECK On 11:50 AM


I am not giving up!!! It just may be 4-5 years before I can be here full time again....I am just not sure how to keep the baby out of the dog dish while I am blogging! And nighttime pshhhhhh I am in bed by 8!!!!!!



I WILL BE BACK!

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

TEACHBROECK On 11:31 AM

Goodbye



OHIOBLUEBEEDAZEDEYESBOP!!!!




I have never met you or talked on the phone...gone days with reading, but I liked you.
FUNNY REAL AND TRUE!





The ending of an era.





I'LL MISS YOU!



FB in 5 minutes right? HA HA

hi.

TEACHBROECK On 10:34 AM

Still here.

Do you have one of "those" friends that is always sick...? Like you get damn tired of hearing about this and that illness?



I am THAT PERSON!


Seriously we have been sickass here since around midnovember.
I am happy to report lots of good news though: (queasy people move along)




Hudson pooped his first REAL poop in 13 days...yes in the last 13 days I have (or my saint of a daycare provider) has change 3-7 up the ole back and down the ole leg DISGUSTING poops A DAY! Of course I took him to the Dr...on day 8 1/2 and they don't test the POO until day 10 so on Day 10 when it was 25 below REALLY it was! And I was dying in my bed Justin scraped crap out of the diaper and took it to the lab...and the very next day(today) he had a real in-the-diaper poop. I think deep down he is trying to help me meet my deductible in the first month of this glorious new year! So Yes I actually called to Jdog to come up and PEER at teh solid chunk in his diaper this morning...


So Rewind to Wed. night...we went out to eat the Jdog's family including is G'ma who leaving for Texas 3 months (damn smart woman!) ...the next day I woke up and felt a little off but nothing I couldn't handle...by 9am I was hurling and well furling my lungs out...it was horrible..I called Jdog to come home but the COWS MUST GO ON! So I laid most the day on the floor running to the bathroom handing off Baby j to Kdog who was not up to par in her bed watching movies all day...


The shakes
A fever
Cold
Hot

and the many many trips to the bathroom...

I called to Mother Death many times.



I have not eaten since Wed...a couple crackers and some broth...my rear end is scared of food.




THE WORST FLU EVER and I missed the second scheduling of Christmas with my YA YAs I felt like a crumb. Good news was since ones nipples burst at the thought of going outdoors school was canceled both Thursday and Friday!



Tonight is the Fire Dept. Christmas party ...the first time we have had a sitter in a long time... I am scared to leave the house!



Okay enough of me...if Baby J actually takes a nap without screaming I may catch up on yours!



Here are some pics for my bad bloggin behavior!








Kdog's First BB game! It was awesome...they were terrbile but so damn cute and tried so hard out there on the great big court!




Really does this pic need any words....


Operation paint living room is ON

Forever ...I am so glad they have eachother






Oh yes he is OURS!


That is all for now...TRUE LIFE is calling my name on DVR

Mellow NYE

TEACHBROECK On 10:13 AM

We dropped by some friend's house that we hadn't seen in awhile..I am not really friends with any of the girls but K had fun and Jdog caught up with his buddies. One of them has a son 20 days younger than Baby J.It was coincidence that one of K's classmates was there THANK GOD! They had fun with their new DS's (which BTW I am addcited to Mario Bros. Mini games...the Whack a Mole is the da bomb!!)We got home about 9pm and I prepared drinks for ALL!K usually sleeps upstairs once a week so we all piled in our bedroom and watched Season 1 of the office that Jdog got from his lovely wife for Xmas (and in retrospect was not all that appropriate for Kdog thank god she only laughed when we did which means she didn't get the jokes)
Here we are about 10pm I was sleeping shortly after this....



HAPPY NEW YEAR
These beauties are going to change so much!
Kdog 9
Baby J 7 months